The first time you were walking away from her, and you saw tears in her eyes, you must have thought - oh, give it a break! It was you pestering me all these years, and now, its you who gets to shed the tears? Of all people on Earth, not you!
And then again, the next time, and the time after that, and many more times later, on similar occasions, when you notice the glittering eyes, when you hear the sobs she is trying to suppress so hard, when you see her covering her lips just to stop them from trembling, you think - Seriously! Every time? Grow up, its not the first time any more. And after all, this is what you wanted.
Whenever you hear her complaining about you being more committed to the outer world than to her, whenever you realize that she is hurt by the fact that you don't belong to her anymore, you get even more irritated! Well, you should have thought about it first, now that I have tasted the freedom outside, I am not coming back. And seriously, what is the big deal? You should be happy for me. What you have got is a dream of many.
Well, it is not entirely your fault. For you have not seen yourself laughing for the first time. You have not celebrated the day you sat up straight. You did not note the day when you first stood up clutching something. You did not teach yourself how to walk. You did not make up stories to put yourself to sleep every night. You did not have to bear the pain of scolding the person you love the most. Rather she did all these stuff, she did these for you. She is responsible for what you are today. She made you what you are. She saw you grow, step by step, inch by inch. She knows you the best, perhaps even better than you do. So, if she feels a bit weak to see you leave her, its not entirely her fault either. You can't really blame her, can you?
And then again, the next time, and the time after that, and many more times later, on similar occasions, when you notice the glittering eyes, when you hear the sobs she is trying to suppress so hard, when you see her covering her lips just to stop them from trembling, you think - Seriously! Every time? Grow up, its not the first time any more. And after all, this is what you wanted.
Whenever you hear her complaining about you being more committed to the outer world than to her, whenever you realize that she is hurt by the fact that you don't belong to her anymore, you get even more irritated! Well, you should have thought about it first, now that I have tasted the freedom outside, I am not coming back. And seriously, what is the big deal? You should be happy for me. What you have got is a dream of many.
Well, it is not entirely your fault. For you have not seen yourself laughing for the first time. You have not celebrated the day you sat up straight. You did not note the day when you first stood up clutching something. You did not teach yourself how to walk. You did not make up stories to put yourself to sleep every night. You did not have to bear the pain of scolding the person you love the most. Rather she did all these stuff, she did these for you. She is responsible for what you are today. She made you what you are. She saw you grow, step by step, inch by inch. She knows you the best, perhaps even better than you do. So, if she feels a bit weak to see you leave her, its not entirely her fault either. You can't really blame her, can you?
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awesome, love it... so thoughtful
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